Building His House... or Mine?

So I’ve been on this ‘read the bible in 1 year plan’ for about the last 3 years! Yes, I’ll admit it, I need to be more regular at this, but that’s not the point of this blog. I was reading Haggai the other day, an Old Testament Prophet. This book is about the Jewish people and their return from Babylonian exile. They had begun to rebuild their own homes and businesses and to establish their statehood as a Jewish community but had seemed to put on hold the construction of the temple for worship. The focus of their faith was losing its’ central place.

These are the verses I read that caused me to stop and think.

Haggai 1:5-9

Now this is what the LORD Almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it." This is what the LORD Almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways. Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build the house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored," says the LORD. "You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?" declares the LORD Almighty. "Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house.

It was a simple reminder for me. I am working hard at having a ministry, whether it is local and church based (I love my job at Vernon Alliance church), or further afield on the road including writing, recording and traveling. I don’t plan to return to the road full time, but having a new CD I want to expose it wherever possible to new audiences and that involves promoting it in whatever ways I can. At the same time I want to honor my job and responsibilities at home.

But after I read these verses in Haggai, I knew I had to do a refocus. It’s too easy for me to say I’m building God’s house, when I’m really busy with my own. I want the music that I make to be successful, but I don’t want that to happen at the expense of my relationship with God. I believe that He has called me to do what I am doing, but I also know how easy it is to lose focus and make it about me first, and God second - but make it sound like it’s the other way around by using the right language.

Why am I writing this? I suppose in some way it makes me accountable to whoever might read it. It’s also a little opportunity for me to consecrate, or dedicate my life, my family, my music back to God again, for His purpose and for His glory. I want to build His house. I know that if I do that, the rest will take care of itself.